I dont even know where to start mam..one minute im fine the next im a mess...im not coping very well...infact i dont think im coping at all. why did u have to suffer??..why did i have to loose u the way i did??..will this pain get easier? when we released our balloons on redcar beach on saturday, i thought i would be able to move on but i cant..im still stuck mam...and i dont know how to let go yet. i know i will in time but for now..im in such pain, and only those who've lost their mother will know how im feeling. so look down on me from where ever u are mam..i love u with all my heart....xxxx