its been 4 weeks now mam...and im getting there, slowly, at least im not crying all the time!..dont get me wrong, im still in bits and i miss you more than words can say...but i feel calmer now, like emma said its my party soon and i know in my heart you'll be there, everybody who means something to me will be there and although you wont be there in person i know you'll be watching over me. i miss you mam...i need you...id give anything for one more day with you..i love you with all my heart....only a heart beat away mam...see you in my dreams.....xxxxx